getting mixed up on my schedule..

i asked fredrick if he'd take me to get my glasses and he told me on thursday he'd take me. i just looked at the calendar and it's thanksgiving day on thursday, so i doubt they'll even be open. i just looked at my calendar again and i thought i remembered the spanish tutor saying something about not having class on friday like usual.. i gotta check with her because that'd be my only free day this week- although maybe i'd be able to pick them up in the afternoon on wednesday? i forgot i had physical therapy this morning, so i missed that at about 8 am this morning. i think i forgot to set my alarm. damnit. then later, i have to leave for work at about 1:30 i think.. since i always come too early or late because i get the correct times i gotta be there mixed up half the time and/or traffic. and a solution to this problem would NOT be to just force me to go to the waste of space AND time institute known as courage kenny so i wouldn't have any responsibilities whatsoever and they could just continue to discourage me from doing anything to progress so they could have another mindless client WITHOUT advocacy- so they'd be able to make money off of me doing the same unhelpful shit while everyone THINKS they're ACTUALLY helping. JUST UNDERESTIMATE the clients without advocacy! THEY'RE TOO STUPID TO FIND ADVOCACY AND/OR PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT THEM- LET'S JUST TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THAT! ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY'RE PERSISTENT AND MOTIVATED! i'm SICK of that shit. plus, it just takes away from the possibility of actually gaining work experience to actually make something of my life. DOESN'T CONCERN AMANDA AND/OR THE REST OF MY FAMILY (EXCEPT JOE)! IT'S NOT THEIR PROBLEM! STACY'S "GOT THIS!!" that's like pushing a person in a canoe without paddles or oars in the middle of a lake and expecting them to steer the damn boat, of course screaming at them "YOU GOT THIS!" because SOMEHOW that'll actually fuckin help them. *rolls eyes* they're too ignorant to give a damn- JUST AS LONG AS THEY APPEAR "SUPPORTIVE" TO THEIR IN-LAWS AND OTHER PEOPLE STUPID ENUGH TO BELIEVE THEY'RE DOING WHAT THEY TOLD MY GRANDMA THEY'D DO. i'm NEVER going to respect you as long as you live for not doing what you claimed you'd do. stop trying to take advantage of the fact my grandma is dead and can't back me up here. i'm not kissing your ass for support. FAMILY SHOULDN'T HAVE TO DO THAT. JUST AS LONG AS IT'S CONVENIENT AND/OR BENEFICIAL TO YOU THOUGH! STACY IS STUPID! SHE HAS A TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY! THAT MEANS SHE'S STUPID! NO ONE LISTENS TO HER ANYWAY! IF MY MOM AND THE REST OF MY FUCKING FAMILY REALLY CARED ABOUT ME- THEY'D BE EAGER TO HELP ME IN A WAY THAT WOULD ACTUALLY HELP ME IN LIFE. NOT WHAT'S MORE CONVENIENT FOR AMANDA AND/OR HER IN-LAWS TO MAKE THEM LOOK GOOD. HAVEN'T YOU IDIOTS EVER HEARD OF "MENTAL HEALTH" BEFORE?! MINE IS ALWAYS ABOUT TO EXPLODE BECAUSE YOU PRICKS ASSUME YOU KNOW WHAT'S BEST FOR ME- WHICH COINCIDENTALLY IS WHATEVER IS MORE CONVENIENT OR BENEFICIAL FOR YOU. i don't know how much more of this shit i can take. THIS IS WHY I GO CRAZY WHEN I'M NOT OCCUPIED/CONSTRUCTIVE. AND NOT WITH THOSE STUPID ASS MACHINES MY LIVING ROOM WALL COULD OPERATE.